Just tell me I'm here for a reason.

It always feels like there is just one person in the world to love....and then you find someone else, and you wonder why you were ever worried in the first place.

I have always made it clear that I simply do not believe there is only one soul mate for each of us. I mean, come on. That would be such a stupid system. Everyone has multiple soul mates. This is just the way it is.

Now, maybe you'll only need one of yours in your lifetime. That's great...that's wonderful. Some of us may need more than one.

I've been through my fair share of heart breaks....the kind that shattered my world and left me with nothing. Literally...no job, no house...not even a bed. I mean...all I had were my clothes and some pillows. I guess technically that's something, but I made it out alive.

I'm still standing...still breathing...

I find myself constantly thinking about the entire concept of love, and the previous statements I made...are what I really believe. So I wonder then, why it's so hard for me to live by them?

I know that I am a person who deserves love, and is ready and open to share my life. I want that...I've always wanted that. Yet, I always find myself with someone who holds back from me.

And then I start to think...maybe...maybe I don't deserve it...what am I doing wrong....am I meant to be alone?

I don't know...and being in love with a person and not knowing where they stand is honestly one of the worst feelings in the world.

I'm a strong person...but I can only take so much. Because just as I am strong, I am resilient as well...