This bitter earth.

People are strange. Usually creatures of habit...mostly, they stick to their comfort zones. Those few spontaneous ones...the risk takers, the rebels; those are the ones I tend to gravitate towards. I am myself, a self-proclaimed wild child. Though I'm more subdued these days, I still have that fire inside, that urge to get up and go. I think that's why monotony bores me. Not to say that I can't maintain relationships, or remain in one place for a while...despite the fact that my track record may relay a different story, I can. Things in those relationships just need to be fun, and interesting.

It's funny to me how other people do things, you know they're not happy with. How they'll just settle for the situation they're in. To me, that kind of life will never be satisfying. I feel for those people. Those who convince themselves they can live that way, or with people they despise.
I did far too much settling, and convincing in my life. With significant others as well as platonic relationships. I'm finished with that. There's things I want to do, and places I wanna go that I've put off for years for the sake of someone else's happiness. Not anymore.

I just wish everyone could make that change in their lives, because you've only got this one shot at it, and it would be a damn shame to waste it.

Fool me once shame on you...Fool me twice, fuck you.

The boy is finally moved out of the crapartment. It's such a melancholy ending to this situation that was not always so tumultuous. We had a multitude of good times there. But it was just a series of unfortunate events that have led us to this point. It is the end of a chapter in life, mostly his...as he was clearly affected the most in this debacle.

I am so glad to have the weekend here, even though my saturday is shot with having to attend a glorious back yard wedding like an hour away. I'm sure we'll manage to make the best of it and fabricate out own good time.

Enjoy your weekend all!!

I like me.

The people in my life, and the relationships that I make...are extremely important to me.
I am a giver by nature. I love for my friends and loved ones to be happy, and I'll do anything within my capabilities to build onto their blissfulness.
But I wonder, does this make me more vulnerable to heartbreak and disappointment?
Maybe. I don't think that means I should change who I am though. I didn't always believe that. There was a time, however, I felt that might be a necessary modification to my personality.
As I've gotten older (not much!), I have become comfortable enough with myself and amply confident in who I am, where I'm going in life, and what I want out of it as well. This helps me maintain this trait and I am so glad it does. =)

Ants in my pants!

Ooohhh the more I see on msnbc, cnn, c-span...the more I feel like I can't get through school fast enough. Knowing all the things I know about disappearing wetlands, deforestation, displaced wildlife gives me more motivation than anything or anyone else.
It's utterly mind boggling to me that I hadn't figured out earlier that it was so clear what I should be doing. I kinda want to punch myself in the head. =)

So as long as the world doesn't end in 2012...ya know, in account of the zombie apocalypse...I will be actively pursuing my education to make a difference in our environment, and be a voice for nature and wildlife.

Unless it's a matter of the heart.

I'm different from other girls. I don't need flowers, or candy, or jewelery. I've never needed that. I think what means more to me are your words, and the way you look at me, and how you touch me. Romance to me, isn't an expensive dinner with fancy drinks...it's just not some over the top act.
It's someone offering to help and support me; or telling me I'm making a wrong decision. That honesty...that's what I want. Because being that honest takes guts.
I'm stubborn, and persistant and I need someone who can calm me down, and clear my vision when it's blinded by my hard headed-ness.
I want someone to challenge me, and themselves. Someone who is just as thirsty for knowledge and driven to make the most of this life as I am.
I've missed out on alot in my life...I have so many things to see and do. I really can't wait to start. =)

Until you get put on the endangered species list.

Some of you may not agree with the aggressive manor that the Sea Shepherds of the Steve Irwin, Bob Barker, and Ady Gill use in attempt to eradicate illegal Japanese whaling.

But I believe their cause and their mission is brave and necessary. Whales are amazing, beautiful creatures, and in 1966 it became illegal to hunt them. Most nations respected this ban besides the Soviet Union, who continued to hunt them until the 1970's. Now, it's only the Japanese (who claim to be legally killing and collecting for "research").
Humpback whales have been marked for extinction from planet Earth. The Japanese quota for this years hunt? 50 Humpback whales.
The destruction of their habitat is also to blame for their perilous situation. Humpback's migrate from Mexico, Hawaii, and Japan to Alaska's Glacier Bay to feed on krill during the summer. This bay receives runoff from the Tongass Forest, and as long as it was a protected wilderness area the bay was safe. That was until 2003, when the Healthy Forest Initiative opened 9 million acres of this forest to logging. Now this bay is at risk of runoff that contains sediments and nitrates from logging that can kill the krill.

Currently there are somewhere between 30,000 - 40,000 whales left in the entire world. This is approximately 1/3 the number of whales that originally roamed the seven seas.

I don't want to make it all about the whales though...there are far too many creatures that your children, and grandchildren may not ever know. The immensity of it overwhelms me, and I just don't know how I've gotten this far in life without deciding to make wildlife conservation my life's work. I mean, the most meaningful tattoo I have is the World Wildlife Fund logo...it only makes sense. Feel free to browse the list of endangered species for yourself. It's incredibly disheartening to see, and know there's little I can do at this point. Hopefully I remain focused on my goal, as far as my education is concerned, and can one day do my part in the struggle to conserve so many of this planet's most important natural places these creatures call home.

You say tomato, I say Baja Blast.

So I was convinced into trying a Baja Blast Mountain Dew today...and even though I kinda thought it tastes like windex I still continue to drink it.

Moving along, so I had a lovely stroll through the forest. The dogs had a good romp and had fun smelling nature. Good times.

I'm looking forward to pay day tomorrow...as well as going on a date with my super rad boyfriend. I'm gonna be his sugar mama tomorrow night. ;)
Hopefully this weekend will be filled with lots of friends and good times.

In other news, I'm pretty sure that pot smokers are among the most generous demographics of people I've ever met. They will bum you their last smoke, share their last bit of resin...even use the last dollar in their pocket to get you some munchies. They really are some peaceful, zen-like mother fuckers. ...Why is weed illegal again?


Well...I plan to start being more active in life now that I am once again receiving regular paychecks. Then, I foresee being able to present you with much more worth-while blogs.
I am so regretful I have nothing intelligent, nor interesting for today...or yesterday for that matter.

Aside from the fact that I couldn't be happier that our Chicago Blackhawks are the 2010 STANLEY CUP CHAMPIONS!!!

Til tomorrow...