True or false, it may be she's still out to get me.

I know that I can be a hard person to handle. I think this is mostly because I am extremely outspoken, and don't really take bullshit. My father claims that I'm ignorant, but really...I'm not.
My mother tells me I need to take the bullshit comments people throw at me.
I strongly disagree with both of them. In certain situations, I am aware I will be required to deal with a certain amount of bullshit, especially from work. but that's life...I get that parents. I shouldn't have to have a family filled with people that are unsupportive and judgemental. Fuck off.
So, I've come up with a plan of action. As much as I'd like to continue to not pay rent...and as lonely as living alone is...the goal is just that. Getting the fuck out of dodge. I simply value my sanity more than living rent free. So I'll begin with paying off my car. Double payments should take care of that within several months. Pay off some outstanding bills to get that shit off my credit report...and then start buying shit that I will use to furnish my future dumpy apartment while stashing some cash as well.

I honestly and truly do not like being angry. I'm a pretty bubbly person...I am a chatterbox, and love to laugh. Sticking me in this tense, stressful environment is like leaving a flower in the dark....ripping wings off a butterfly...it's cruel. I gotta get out.

Ideas pull the trigger, but Instinct loads the gun.

Never assume, cause...well, you probably know why. But I won't assume you do ;) People can surprise you. Communication is key in any important relationship in your life. Never be afraid to be honest. Never let the truth be an after-thought. I hope that all the people in my life respect me enough to give me at least that. Don't be afraid to hurt my feelings...I have been through tougher times than you may know. I've always come out on my feet, and more resilient than before. This is not to say that I don't fall apart once in a while, or shed a tear here or there. But I don't ever want to be an obligation to anyone. I want you to want me in your life, and if you don't...then just simply say so. Because if you're in mine, it's because I want you there.

xoxo

Punch List

I have a bit of pent of aggression right now for various reasons, all of which are not worth discussing...rather I'm just going to hate on some random shit.

Things I want to punch in the face:

1. Precious Moments.
-I used to enjoy them, but only because my grandma collected them. So naturally my mother did as well, and I was like oh...well I guess I'll have to too...not. They're stupid, pastel, pieces of shit, wastes of money. Why in fuck would I want a bunch of those doe-eyed bullshit statues sitting around my house like I'm an 80 year old cat lady. No thank you.

2. Designer Fakes.
-Owned one, never will again. Spend the money on the real thing, or don't bother. I don't like fake people so why would I like fake Fendi? Makes no sense.

3. Hair extensions.
-Really? It's much sexier to be able to rock what you've got. I'm tired of all these fake nail'd, fake tanned, fake boobed, fake haired bitches thinking they're something. If you were, you wouldn't need fake everything.

4. Shark Week,
- I don't fucking like sharks to begin with, and because of my mother allowing me to watch Jaws as a child I have been afraid of even stepping foot into water deeper than my waist including Lake Michigan. Especially if I can't see the bottom.

5. People who cheat on their significant others.
-I'm talking all venues of cheating. Hiding things, having emotional talks with another person instead of your bf/gf, and of course physically. I see a relationship as a partnership/friendship/safe place where you can be yourself. You are supposed to let that person in, share things, have fun, and trust each other. I'm not saying you can't have time to yourself to have your own hobbies, or go out with the guys/girls once in a while. But if you're gonna cheat...give the person the common decency and let them go. Don't be a scumbag.

6. One-uppers.
-You know the person...the one where you're having a conversation and mention that this week your allergies have been terrible, and they say, "Mine too I almost died...twice."
Fuck off.

7. People who can't handle real life.
-Don't complain to me about how hard your life is when you planned on/chose to have kids, a mortgage, car payment, cable, a fancy new phone, dogs, and can't pay the bills or feed your family. Get a job, or another job, and stop drinking at the bar every night. Shut the fuck up. We all have bills.

8. People who think they're better than than everyone else.
-Excuse me, I don't know what exactly gave you that impression but you shit, piss, and breath the same as the rest of us, so get your head out of your ass.

9. The smell of popcorn...especially microwaved.
-There's something about that smell that for whatever reason I can almost equate it the smell of vomit, or farts sometimes. It's quite off putting.

10. Mosquitoes.
-Not that I feel this one needs elaboration, but they quite literally suck. Especially because they wreaked havoc upon my favorite species of bird (the crow) a while back and nearly eradicated them from existence in these parts. Lucky for me, they're making a comeback this year :)

Barf bags are not included in this blog...read at your own risk.

Sooo today is the start to an extremely long weekend. The boy is in Vegas until monday night. He hasn't even been gone a full 24 hours and I already miss him like crazy. I'm a dork. It's been just 5 months and I couldn't have imagined being this happy. I love being around him (when neither of us is crabby ;) ), he is just awesome to me. He's smarter than people probably know, he's funny, sweet, and, close your eyes to avoid the over-share, pretty great in the sack. Here's hoping we get to share many more great times in the future.

xoxo

And yet again...

I will be starting another new job. I feel crappy everytime I have to start a new job. But whatever, I have to see if this time I'll be able to make some money. I've given my current employer since May, and nothing has changed. So starting August 23rd...I will hopefully have extra money to save.

I had other things on my mind that I wanted to get out of my head and into this blog, but unfortunately my inconsiderate, waste of life of a brother walked passed me just now while I was typing and continued to spew bullshit nonsense out of his face. So I forgot what I wanted to say....fuck this.